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| Re-Done |
| 01.02.05 (10:53 am) |
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I'm in the middle of re-doing this blog. I got tired of the pink. I don't even like that color. Really, I don't know why I keep this blog. I have another one heather-anne.com. That's the one I post in. This one was supposed to be a quit smoking journal, but I'm smoking and I'm having a really hard time quitting. I plan on quitting soon, but I can't get past the depression. I've suffered from depression most of my life and when I quit smoking it gets really bad. So I start again. I've started studying Kabbalah about six months ago. I've read a couple books and I'm really in to it but there aren't any Kabbalah Centers or groups anywhere near me so that makes it hard. I'm excited now because I joined a virtual Kabbalah group through Yahoo and we have live conferences through the messenger. I think that will help a lot. We're having one tonight. I guess I'll keep this blog as my quit smoking - spiritual journal. I'm not done with the re-design yet. I don't know if I like the background this dark even though it's my favorite color. Also, I have some Kabbalah links to add and more smoking links. I know, a boring entry. Sorry about that. |
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| Nine Layers of Me |
| 04.15.04 (1:00 pm) |
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OK. I was browsing blogs and I saw this. I took this from Jennsabsent. Layer One Name: Heather Birth date: June 25, 1975 Birthplace: Newark, Ohio Current Location: Newark, Ohio Eye Color: Brown Hair Color: Auburn Height: 5'8" Righty or Lefty: Righty Zodiac Sign: Cancer ------------------------- ------------------------- ------------------------- ----- Layer Two Your heritage: English The shoes you wore today: New Balance tennis shoes Your weakness: Perfectionism Your fears: Dying. Your perfect pizza: Not a big pizza fan. I guess just a cheese pizza Goal you'd like to achieve: To travel around the world. ------------------------- ------------------------- ------------------------- ----- lLayer Three Your most overused phrase on YIM: Haven't been on for a while so I don't know. Your first waking thoughts: 5 more minutes! Your best physical feature: My hair Your most missed memory: When my son was a baby. ------------------------- ------------------------- ------------------------- ----- Layer Four Pepsi or Coke: Neither McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King (Veggie Whoppers!!) Single or group dates: Single Adidas or Nike: Doesn't matter Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate Cappuccino or coffee: Neither ------------------------- ------------------------- ------------------------- ----- Layer Five Smoke: In the process of quitting. Cuss: Sometimes Sing: All the time even though I know I can't. Take a shower everyday: Yes Do you think you've been in love: Yes, I know I have/am. Want to go to college: Yes, again. Liked high school: Hated it. Want to get married: I am. Believe in yourself: Depends on my mood. Get motion sickness: Nope Think you're attractive: Not so much. Think you're a health freak: No. Get along with your parent(s): Yes Like thunderstorms: LOVE THEM!! Play an instrument: I played the trumpet in high school. ------------------------- ------------------------- ------------------------- ----- Layer Six In the past month... Drank alcohol: A little bit. Smoked: Yes Done a drug: No. Made out: Yes. Gone on a date: No Gone to the mall: Yep, for something specific. Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No. Eaten sushi: Never in my life. Been on stage: No Been dumped: No Gone skating: No Made homeade cookies: No, but my husband did. Gone skinny dipping: It's too cold. Dyed your hair: No Stolen anything: No You sound boring: I have been a little boring lately, it's been nice. ------------------------- ------------------------- ------------------------- ----- Layer Seven Ever... Played a game that required removal of clothing: [blush] Oh yeah. If so, was it mixed company: Yes Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: More times than I can count. Been caught "doing something": Yep. Been called a tease: Yep. Gotten beaten up: No. Shoplifted: Yes, and I got caught. (When I was 15.) Changed who you were to fit in: Sadly, yes. ------------------------- ------------------------- ------------------------- ----- Layer Eight Damn, is this ever going to be finished??? Age you hope to be married: I'm married. Got married when I was 21. Numbers and Names of Children: 1 boy, 11 years old, Andre Describe your Dream Wedding: On a beach. How do you want to die: In my sleep. Where you want to go to college: COTC What do you want to be when you grow up: Happy. What country would you most like to visit: Australia ------------------------- ------------------------- ------------------------- ----- Layer Nine Number of people I could trust with my life: 2 my dad and my husband. Number of CDs that I own: I have no idea, too many. Number of piercing: 3, two in one ear, one in the other. Although I used to have my nose and belly pierced. Number of tattoos: Zero Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: 4 or 5 Number of scars on my body: Some little ones, but my favorite is my c-section scar right below my bikini line. Number of things in my past that I regret: No regrets. |
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| It's been a week... |
| 04.15.04 (8:22 am) |
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Since I last posted. Tuesday I went to work in the wrong scrubs. We have several different color scrubs and we designate which days we're wearing what colors. I had Roscoe drop off the right ones. Wednesday was OK. We all had pedometers on, just out of curiosity. By the end of the work day, most of the girls had walked around 4000 steps. One girl walked about 8000 steps. I walked 11,000 steps. I'm the one person who never gets to sit down all day. That was interesting. Then, our last patient came in with a tiny kitten. She said the mom abandoned it. It's eyes were barely open and it's ears were still folded down. She was trying to find a home for it. I wanted it so bad, but I have 4 cats already...for that reason. I'm such a sucker for kittens. Anyway, I didn't take it, as much as I wanted to. I held it for a while and it purred for me. Too cute....I took this picture of it with my camera phone. It was yawning. I'm still so excited. Only 87 more days until I see Madonna. Roscoe and I are going to try to stay in Chicago for 2 nights. A girl I work with told me there's a Rainforrest Cafe in Chicago. I can't wait. That's my favorite restaurant, but I've only been to the one at Disney World. It's become tradition. When we go to Disney, we HAVE to eat at Rainforrest. We still haven't made any hotel reservations. We should do that, soon. I just don't know anything about Chicago, I've never been there. A girl I work with has a sister in law who lives there. She keeps telling me she's going to call and ask which hotels are cheap, but decent and near the United Center. So, what else is there to do in Chicago? Like I said, I've never been there, but I'm all about seeing new places and trying new things. |
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| Air Head |
| 04.09.04 (5:05 pm) |
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I took Ceeceesun's advice about weight training and bought a weight bench today. My mom wanted to go shopping for Easter basket fillers and while we were out I thought I'd look at them for the hell of it and found one on clearance for $25. That's really cheap. It's pretty basic. (I think, I'm new to this.) It has the leg extension and butterfly attachment. I bought some weights for it. I'm all excited. Now I have to make room in my basement by my treadmill so I can set it up. The only thing I don't have (that I assumed it would come with and it did not) are the poles to hold the weights. But, I'm guessing they aren't very expensive. I hope anyway. So now, the new improved fitness plan is to weight train every other night, and walk on the treadmill every other night. Roscoe and I were going to go to Wheeling WV. tonight to the casino since we didn't get to go last week. We had a sitter all lined up, she lives across the street from us, but she has yet to show up. I guess we're not going anywhere. Are we just destined not to have a life? That's frustrating. Well, I just can't think of anything witty to say, or anything to ponder right now. I've been sort of absent minded all day. It's a withdrawal symptom from not smoking. After a few days, you begin getting more oxygen than your body is used to and you get dizzy and light headed. Yep folks, it's DAY 5 smoke free!! Oh, but I do have a funny story about being so absent minded!! Two actually. I pulled a "Jessica Simpson" (as I call it) twice! First, Roscoe and I were talking about Mike Myers and I said that I didn't like him because he annoys me. He insisted that I DO like him, because I really love the movie Shrek. My response..."Yeah, but his head is covered up in Shrek, you can't see him." DUH!! He's not in the movie, BECAUSE IT'S ANIMATED. Oh, but it gets better. We were watching the Travel Channel and they were talking about San Francisco. I said that his dad (my boss) was talking about taking an office trip there. Then I asked where it is. Roscoe asked where I thought it was. (OK. It made sense in my mind at 1:30 in the morning...) I said "Philadelphia." (I was thinking that a lot of gays live in San Francisco, then I started thinking about the movie with Tom Hanks...Philadelphia.) Then I corrected myself and quickly said "California...right?" Roscoe (the joker he is) looked at me and laughed and said "Do you really think it's in California?" I said "Yes." He laughed again and said "Really? You're joking, right?" Then I got really upset, and embarrassed and said "Well, where is it then?" Don't forget, this is 1:30 in the morning. He got a big laugh. I'm glad I can entertain him. |
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| Friday Five |
| 04.09.04 (3:27 pm) |
 1. What do you do for a living? Orthodontist Assistent 2. What do you like most about your job? The people I work with, and it's an easy job. 3. What do you like least about your job? The field. 4. When you have a bad day at work it's usually because _____...We were really busy or my boss (father in law) snaps at me. 5. What other career(s) are you interested in? Forensic Science (I have a degree in that), Web Design (I'm going to go to school for that. |
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| Something to work on. |
| 04.06.04 (6:40 pm) |
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Why is it that some people feel the need to say negative, destructive things? Why do they want to put others down? Does it make them feel better? Do they think it makes them stronger? Do they feel like they're on a higher ground when they condescend others? What's sad, is that sometimes I fall for it. Sometimes people can say things to me and I believe them or buy in to it. Why can't I rise above that and see it for what it really is? Maybe a few hours later I can, but in the moment, it can hurt. Why? They're not better than I am. So why should I let it get to me? I shouldn't. But yet I do. That's something I need to work on. I forgot to add...I made it through Day 2 smokefree!! |
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| Made it, so far... |
| 04.05.04 (5:56 pm) |
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I've managed to go a day without smoking. Yeah for me. I'm not going to dwell about it here (that's what my other tblog is for) but I thought it was worthy mentioning. Well, Roscoe decided that he wants to sell the Prince tickets (since they were kind of for his birthday) and use the money to go to Wheeling and gamble. Whatever. I'm not big on gambling, maybe if we won once I would change my mind. We only go once a year anyway. Hey, only 96 more days till the Madonna concert, not that I have a countdown on my calender or anything. Who would do that? |
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| Things |
| 04.05.04 (10:24 am) |
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I took this idea from Rebecca, who took it from someone else. 1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: Harry retreated farther as the dementor bore down upon him 2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?: A Little Tikes organizer thingy 3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?: Sponge Bob Square Pants 4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is: 1:15 p.m. ? 5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 1:15pm Wow!! I bet I couldn't do that again!! 6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: The mail truck 7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?: Yesterday to go to Super Walmart 8: before you came to this website, what did you look at?: My email 9: what are you wearing?: Long sleve Ohio State shirt, blue jogging pants 10: Did you dream last night?: That I was on the Apprentice and Troy asked me to go to the movies with him 11: George Bush: is he a power-crazy nut case or ... History 12: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?: Jasmine 13: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?: I named him Andre 14: Would you ever consider living abroad?: Yep, if it's someplace warm all the time. |
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| I've gone pro... |
| 04.05.04 (8:51 am) |
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I was so bored the other night so I went ahead and paid the $20 for a pro account. I'm still working on the layout, but I'm liking it so far. I didn't know what to do with myself yesterday when tblog was off. Well, if my blog starts doing really funky things, don't worry, it's just me playing with the html!! |
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| Typical |
| 04.03.04 (5:03 pm) |
| You know, I lost it last week. I got to the breaking point and snapped. For the past 2 months, Roscoe has been working out at his dads and has never been home. My family continues to call me and expect me to fix everyone's problems, which I just can not do as much as I try. I've been trapped in this apartment playing single mom and not able to get out and do anything. For that reason I lost it last week. My father in law reserved a suite in Wheeling so we could all go out (my father in law, his wife, Roscoe and me) for a night and get away. Andre was at his friends, Roscoe and I were getting ready and the phone rang. It was Andre. "I don't feel good. My belly hurts really badly." Now, this is something he says all the time when he doesn't want to do something or gets in trouble. Over and over we asked him if he was upset about something, if he was maybe just hungry....Nope, he was sick and needed to come home. So, we had to cancel. Andre comes home, goes up and lays down for a half hour and now....he's feeling just fine. He wasn't sick. You know, I love Andre with all my heart, but I need a night out. I need to get out of this apartment. I need to have an adult night. Nope, we're sitting at home, Roscoe is playing poker online and Andre is sitting on the couch watching Sponge Bob. Once again, I feel like I am at my breaking point. I feel like I want to punch the wall or something stupid like that, but I'm too sensable to do it. Doesn't that suck? How is it that the biggest joy in my life (Andre) is also my biggest frustration? |
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| Ups and Downs |
| 04.02.04 (4:47 pm) |
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I've been a bloggin' fool the past couple days. I guess I have a lot on my mind. The past couple weeks have been full of ups and downs. Extreme highs and lows. I got Madonna tickets (extreme high), then my sister screwed up Andre's special day (low.) Andre and I butted heads the other day and I yelled at him, and smacked him, I NEVER do that, it was a first (extreme low.) I upgraded my cell phone so now I have a picture phone that has Madonna as the wall paper and plays "Material Girl" as the ringer (high.) My sister got sent to prison (low.) Today, Roscoe bought tickets to the Prince concert (high), my father in law made reservations for him, his wife, Roscoe and me to spend the night at the casino in Wheeling tomorrow (high), I called my dad and found out that his fiance who had breast cancer removed has to do chemo instead of the radiation they originally planned (extreme low.) What is up with this? Why is my life such a roller coaster? It always has been. (Which is what I'm refering to in the title of my blog.) I want a boring life. OK. To be positive...I guess with all that goes on in my life, all that I've lived through, seen and experienced, I have become a stronger person. It's made me more compassionate and open minded. So, in that sense, it's not a bad thing. But, when will it end? Haven't I learned/grown enough, at least for now? |
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| Prince |
| 04.02.04 (7:16 am) |
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Prince is coming to town on the 16th. We went to see him in 2001 when he came to town and loved it. This time around I figured we'd skip it since I'm seeing Madonna (who needs to see Prince when you're going to see the Queen!!) But this morning Roscoe called and bought tickets. We're on the side of the stage, 10 rows back. I'm so excited. Prince really puts on a great show. Ha. I told Roscoe that now I can practice sneaking a camera in. |
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| Blah |
| 04.01.04 (7:32 pm) |
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I didn't do anything today. It was nice in a way, but I'm disappointed that nothing got done. My apartment is a mess. I feel like I'm in some kind of a funk. I'm not sure how to explain it. I'm not depressed or anything like that, but I'm not really happy either. It's just blah (for lack of a better word.) What I want to do is get up early (I have to get up at 6 to get Andre ready for school) and as soon as Andre's off, just clean. I need to get more active. I want to do research on different spiritual beliefs. I feel that I've lost touch with my spirituality. It's something that's missing from my life. I had a bad thing happen at work yesterday. I work in an orthodontic office and I do a lot of the busy work (assisting, cleaning instruments, stocking, seating patients...) Yesterday as I was cleaning dirty instruments, I got poked by a dirty scaler. It was pretty deep too. My thumb started bleeding. That was (is) very scary to me. When I trained in the crime lab, if anyone got poked by anything they went straight to the hospital for shots and had to be tested for hep and hiv. At the office they said to rinse my thumb with water. That was all. I'm a little disturbed by that. Fortunetly, we only work on kids, but still, that doesn't mean there's no risk. Less of a risk. My mom called. She was incorrect about Jeni's sentencing. It's 6 months instead of a year. So what, does that mean she'll be out in 3 months? I don't know. |
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| Sentencing |
| 03.30.04 (6:26 pm) |
| I'm so tired. Drained, is a better word. My mom called me at work this morning. My sister went to court and was sentenced (for what, I don't know.) She will be spending a year in prison. Very disturbing to me. She has spent up to 6 months in jail before, but she's never been to prison. I can not even imagine what must be going through her head tonight. I would be terrified. I guess I have mixed feelings about this. On the one hand, it's good that she's going to be locked up for a year. She won't be able to do crystal meth, and she'll have food and shelter. On the other hand, as mad as I am at her, she's still my sister and I wonder how scared and lonely she may be feeling right now. Yes, she did this to herself, but it's just sad. I hope this is her breaking point. I hope this is the point at which she climbs her way out of the hole. They can't tell us where they're sending her, or when for security reasons. We'll find out when she's there. If this doesn't wake her up, I think nothing will. |
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| Smirnoff Induced Rant |
| 03.28.04 (11:15 am) |
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It's 1:54 on a Sunday afternoon and I've already had a few Smirnoff Ice's (I love this stuff!!) I don't normally drink. As a matter of fact, these have been in my fridge for 2 months if that tells you how often I drink. So why am I drinking today? Because I'm pissed and I don't want to be. Here's the thing. Andre's birthday was March 20 (my baby turned 11!) My mom, who is getting custody of my nephew said that while she has visitation with Ryan (my nephew) this weekend, she would like to take the boys to Cosi. (I don't know if there's a Cosi in every state, but what it is, is a science center for kids. It's a very cool hands on place.) Today was the day we were supposed to go. I got a phone call this morning from my mom while she was dropping a few of Ryan's friends off. She told me that she would call my when she got home and was ready to pick us up. Oh, and by the way, Ryan invited his mom to go too. I'm sorry, but I am not about to spend the day with my drug selling, con artist, thief, slut sister. I am furious with Jeni (my sister.) I haven't seen her since Thanksgiving. At that time, my mom had just had a biopsy and my sister knew that. She was later diagnosed with breast cancer and had to have it removed and go through radiation. The thing is, Jeni never called my mom to see how the biopsy turned out. I did call her cell once and said "Do you even fucking care that your mother has fucking cancer?" That was the last correspondence I've had with her. I have since written my sister off. I no longer have a sister. That girl has lied to me, stolen from me, put me in bad situations, turned her back on her family, lost her son...the list goes on. This isn't something new for her. She's 33 years old and has been like this since she was 15. I'm done. I do not want that in my life, or Andre's life. My mom did call me back and I told her that we would not be going today. I said that it would not be a good thing because I know that as soon as I see Jeni, I'm telling her how it is. I didn't want to do that on a day we were supposed to be celebrating Andre's birthday. I know damn well that the ONLY reason Jeni is coming around again (after not speaking to anyone for 3 months) is because my mom starts back at work next week and she'll never be home. My mom is a landscaper and is laid off every winter but works long hours all spring and summer. Jeni knows this. And somehow she found out that my mom is getting custody of Ryan. I'm sorry about the rant. And I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense but I needed to vent somewhere!! |
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| Screening |
| 03.27.04 (12:43 pm) |
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What a day yesterday. I have a balcony off my bedroom and I got it in my head that I wanted it screened in and I wanted outdoor carpet on it. I was driving to Lowes to buy some screen and a staple gun and when I stopped at a red light some girl started honking at me. When I looked at her she started yelling that my 2 brake lights aren't working, only the middle one is. I thanked her and went to the nearest auto store. I bought brake lights and asked one of the clerks if he knew how to install them. He came out to the car and pulled one of the brake lights out then told me that it's not the bulbs. He said it was probably my brake switch. So, from there I drove to Sears auto and asked them if they could take a look. Well, nobody there is qualified to work on the elctronics. I came home. I opened up my fuse panel and took every fuse out to check them and they were all good. So, I called Monroe. They said I could bring the car in and they would look at it in an hour. I went to Monroe and explained everything to them and they said that they couldn't do anything with the wiring, but they would look anyway. They guy came out to the car and had me push the brakes. He said that it probably wasn't the wiring since the middle light worked. He asked for one of the bulbs I bought earlier. He put it in and sure enough it worked. Strange, both bulbs went out at the same time, but then again, they were installed at the same time. After all that, I finally made it to Lowes and bought my screen. My balcony is now screened in and has outdoor carpet nailed down. Thank goodness that girl told me before I got pulled over or caused an accident!! |
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| Reach Out |
| 03.26.04 (8:17 am) |
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About 6 months ago I stumbled across a website about a girl who lost her best friend to suicide. I emailed her and shared my story. When I was a teenager I attempted suicide. Through the years, I have learned to love life and see things in a different way. She asked if she could share my story on her site, as hope for those who are suicidal. I told her she could, then forgot all about it. Until 2 days ago. I received an email from a girl who read my story. She explained how she feels and how she has planned her suicide. I responded to her the best way I knew how. I told her that I do understand how she feels, that I can identify with everything she said. I also told her that I'm so thankful that I never went through with it. There is life after depression. I don't know how much I've impacted her. I know she's left quite an impact on me. I hope that by hearing there's hope from someone who has been there helps her. I hope she replies. Really I think she just needed someone who understands to tell her that she's not weird or crazy. That her pain is very real and she's not alone. If you know somebody who is depressed, please understand that their pain is very real to them, even if it seems small or trivial to you. Know that you can not make them snap out of it. You can not fix their problems. Listen to them. Let them open up to you again and again. A depressed/suicidal person needs to be heard, and they need to know that what they're feeling is not abnormal. Too often, people run away from depressed people when they need someone the most. I know it's not easy to listen sometimes, but letting a depressed person express their feelings is so valuable. Don't try to fix them. They have to find it in themselves. I know that may sound harsh, but it's true. Help them find it by offering positive energy. You can help them see the good things, but don't expect them to see it overnight. It takes time. Remind them that there is life after depression. Let them know that they CAN work through this and once they do, they will come out a better, stronger person. I know because I've been through some really hard times. I tried to kill myself and was in the hospital for a week. I used to cut myself to take away from the emotional pain. I got to the point were I was more comfortable crying than I was laughing. I didn't think there was any hope. But I worked through it (thank you, my wonderful husband who was my support system...) I am so thankful that I worked through it because now I can feel joy and peace. No matter how depressed a person is and how bad things are, there is always hope. |
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| I'm Going To See MADONNA!!!! |
| 03.23.04 (10:18 pm) |
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Yep!! I got tickets today through the fan club pre-sale. I am so psyched!! It's the "Re-Invention Tour." Pictures moved to My Photo Blog I have been a huge fan since the fifth grade (that was way back in 1984.) I've never seen her live. You wouldn't believe what I went through today. It was so stupid. Pre-sales for Chicago opened at 1:00 my time (12:00 CST). Being over-anxious as always and stressed about how fast I can do this, I thought it would be smart to test the system and get familiar with it. Knowing that tickets for the Paris show went on sale eariler, I logged in and reserved 2 tickets just to see. They asked for my billing address and shipping address. I didn't want to put in my REAL address because it was only a test run. So, I put in my maiden name and a made up street address (1234 Main St.) It was all good until the Chicago tickets opened up. I logged in 5 till 1 and kept hitting "refresh". When I got in the system, it took 14 minutes to secure seats. I went to purchase them and I got an error screen and lost the tickets. At that point I started to cry. Literally. I thought I had lost my only chance. But, somehow 2 more tickets got kicked back into the system at 1:30 and I got them. I made it to the info page, typed in all of the CORRECT info and continued. When it brought up my receipt, the fake info was on it. I freaked out. Here, I had paid for 2 tickets but with the wrong billing and shipping address. Luckily I called the company that sold the tickets and explained it to them and they changed everything. So now it's all good!! I'm going to Chicago on July 11th to see my girl!! I'm happy with the seats too....(I'm where the red star is.) Pictures moved to My Photo Blog But wait, there's more...Roscoe thought that since the tickets for the west coast shows opened up 2 hours later it would be cool to see if we could get better seats and trade for better seats in Chicago. He ended up buying 2 tickets for the L.A. show (which are decent seats too). So, now we have extra Madonna tickets. I think we're going to sell those for face value. I don't know. I don't care!! I'm going to see Madonna. I was crying from joy when it was all said and done. |
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| To Realize... |
| 03.19.04 (8:23 pm) |
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I just received this in my email and I wanted to share it. TO REALIZE To realize The value of a sister Ask someone Who doesn't have one. To realize The value of ten years: Ask a newly Divorced couple. To realize The value of four years: Ask a graduate. To realize The value of one year: Ask a student who Has failed a final exam. To realize The value of nine months: Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born. To realize The value of one month: Ask a mother who has Given birth to a premature baby. To realize The value of one week: Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper. To realize The value of one hour: Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet. To realize The value of one minute: Ask a person Who has missed the train, bus or plane. To realize The value of one-second: Ask a person Who has survived an accident. To realize The value of one millisecond: Ask the person who has Won a silver medal in the Olympics. To realize the value of a friend: Lose one. Time waits For no one. Treasure every moment you have. You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special. |
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| Friday Five |
| 03.19.04 (11:35 am) |
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If you... 1. ...owned a restaurant, what kind of food would you serve? Mexican 2. ...owned a small store, what kind of merchandise would you sell? Either Disney collectables, or ocean related stuff 3. ...wrote a book, what genre would it be? Non-fiction about my life 4. ...ran a school, what would you teach? Web design 5. ...recorded an album, what kind of music would be on it? Madonna remixes |
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| Funny |
| 03.18.04 (9:22 pm) |
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I have two pet tadpoles. For Christmas my dad went to the Discovery Store and bought Andre a frog pond. They had to mail order the tadpoles and they finally arrived last week. Some how I have managed to keep these things alive so far. I read that they can live up to 5 years, and they will make a low croak that sounds like a snore. Oh goodie. I have to admit though, they are kind of cool. I was reading ceeceesun's blog today and she asked what the weirdest website you know of is. Then I remembered this one that had been posted on a message board about a year ago that I still haven't gotten over. It's weird, and funny. I have wasted a lot of time on here. If you're bored and want a laugh, go there and watch all of the cartoons. So, now I'm going to ask the same question ceeceesun asked. Do you know of any weird websites? Let me know!! |
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| Decisions, decisions |
| 03.18.04 (2:25 pm) |
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I have been thinking about this job all week and I think I have made a decision. I don't think I'm going to try for it. I know, it sounds crazy but let me explain. First of all, this job strictly deals with death. If it were a crime lab, it would be a no brainer...I'd try for it and not think twice. But it's not. It's a death investigator. I just don't know how many times I can see children or babies in there before I'm affected. Then there's the thing about it being part time. No medical benefits. OK, then I weigh this job against the job I have now...Yes, I don't like the work I do. It's not my dream job. BUT...I have awesome medical benefits for myself and my family and I'm covered by Aflac at no cost to me. And oh the perks!! I work 2-3 days a week, 3 weeks a month. I get 13 weeks off every year. They give everyone there $250 every 3 months for a "beauty allowance." We have to turn in our recipts but we're allowed to buy makeup, hair products, massages, vitamins, and anything else that falls in the "beauty or health" catagory. That's pretty sweet. But there's more...They take everyone on trips to orthodontic conventions. Last year they all went to Hawaii, next year they're taking everyone to San Francisco. all expense paid trips plus they give everyone spending money. And now there's more. Yesterday, my father in law/boss called a quick meeting to let us know they are going to be giving bonus's every 3 months based on work performance. He didn't say how much, just that it's very worth it. With the flexible hours, I can go back to school. I really want to be back in school and I can do that if I stay. I think I would be crazy to leave right now. Yes, this is a great opportunity for me to begin a career in what I trained for, but I'm not so sure that's what I want anymore. I cried last night trying to weigh out the benefits of both jobs. It's so hard. But I think I've made my decision. |
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| I love my computer!!!!! |
| 03.16.04 (3:18 pm) |
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I have never realized how much I rely on the internet until it was gone. I had no internet all weekend until this afternoon. I have been going nuts without it. No email, no nothing. And the one time I really NEED it. I wanted to get online and do a search for cover letters. I have to write a cover letter to apply for this job, and I have no idea how to write one. I also needed to get on to print out an application. Couldn't do either. My phone was messed up too, but that didn't bother me nearly as much. I got on my computer and cleaned out files, defragmented my c-drive, and cleaned every thing else I could. Just to be on the computer. I only bounced 10 emails, I was expecting a lot worse. Roscoe called me at work today and told me that our internet was back and it's all I could think about. I couldn't wait to get home and get online. I have to work tomorrow so I'm going to turn in my application first thing Thursday morning. Oh, this would be such a cool job if I get it!! |
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| Got some news... |
| 03.12.04 (10:37 am) |
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In June 2002 I graduated with a degree in forensic science. Unfortunately there have not been any jobs available in central Ohio in that field. I did some intern work for my instructor at his toxicology lab at the Columbus morgue the summer I graduated but that didn't get me far. I have been working for my father in law for the past year as an orthodontic assistent. My instructor has kept in touch with me. The past few weeks he has been telling me about a possible job opening at our local morgue. I've kind of blown it off as if it happens good, if not oh well. He called me today and the position is open. It's a part-time position. They need someone to assist with autopsies, talk to the families and...(here's the awesome part...) sometimes go to death scenes. They basically want to train someone to be a death investigator. Oh my god!!! This is what I have been waiting for the past few years. My instructor told me that I have a good edge on other applicants because 1. The coroner has known my family for YEARS 2. I interned for the crime lab while I was in school (the crime lab is in the same building as the morgue) and 3. They asked for his opinion as to who they should hire and he gave them my resume. The job will be advertised in the paper this Sunday and next Sunday. I'm so nervous. This would be great!! It's what I trained for in school. I'm not going to get my hopes up too high, because I have no idea who I would be up against. All I can do is go in there and hope for the best. But...here's the thing. I have been thinking about going back to school next year for Digital Media Design. I really enjoy being creative on the computer. So, I'm kind of torn now. |
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| Friday Five |
| 03.12.04 (9:34 am) |
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1. What was the last song you heard? "What it Feels Like For a Girl"--Madonna 2. What were the last two movies you saw? "Finding Nemo" "Miracle" 3. What were the last three things you purchased? Sugar free Red Bull, gas for the car, a pack of Orbit gum. 4. What four things do you need to do this weekend? Laundry, go to the grocery, take Andre to his friend's skating party, re-do my resume. 5. Who are the last five people you talked to? Jim (my old college instructor), Roscoe, my mom, Andre, my father-in-law. |
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